INDIAN EULOGY

Hey...its sandman after a long break..........

well its 26/11.....huh.... people are lightining candles,

politicians are paying tributes 

n many such remembrance schedule going on across the country. 

i am not able to understand the need of the hour.the lone survivor 

kasab is in safe hands,isn't this a mockery on

on indian policies,judiciary n many such aspects.hafiz saaed the main

 mestermind is set free because of lack of evidence.

all the news channels are repeatedly showing that bloodbath,that carnage.

In mumbai there's parade goin on as if they are celebrating republic day.

I am not able to see that anger,wrath which should have been in the countrymen's eyes.

Honestly speaking i think we have become a regular or i should say

enculcated this habit.I am ashamed to hear the statement of our prime minister 

saying that theu dont no who to deal with.Is this not non chalant attitude of our govenment.

Its highly preposterous rather i should say complacent.

And the irony is that Ajmal kasab is more safe than us.

This anger need not to be calmed down but it should be burgeoned among us.

Heeling wounds will not solve the problem.We need to do introspection.Remember

'For whom the bell tolls' ahhh....i think its indians.There is a constant chill deep inside

 our heart....its saying we got to fight,its time for vendetta.Suffered wounds test the pride.

We have to go insane from the pain we are suffering..then i think we will be able to produce

 a massive roar which will disseminate our message to the deaf ears of terrorists,

our government n to the whole world.

We have to show our temerity,frentic nature,this time it will not be punished but rewarded,

we got to show effulgence to outcast this shadow.I am not asking here to rage a war 

against particular country,but taciturners are certainly not allowed.Terrorists are inclement,

so we got to be sagacious enough to tackle them.It's the most propitious time to start with.

I here call a bedlam which will end this trepidation!!!!

SUFFOCATING UNDER THE ACTIONS OF SORROW 

This about my actions which i acted but i didn't wanted to.

Really i feel bad about it but feel like i'm bound to do it.

Can i do anything about it?

Whenever i see anyone in pain i too feel that pain but i only feel it .I'm not able to do anything about it.

I don't know what stops me from helping them.It's about all sought of situations esp. major ones.

I want to slap myself because i'm just fucking around and not able to come out of box.

This reminds me of the RDB's line "AB BHI JISKA KHOON NA KHOALA WOH KHOON NAHI WOH PANI HAI".

I've become used to these problems i'll not say numb because i feel that pain.

I want to help poor farmers (esp. bundelkhand) who are resorting to suicide,victims 

of child labour and many such peoples with gruesome atrocities.

Yesterday i was watching a documentary "THE KILLING ZONE" based on the crisis in

 middle east.The people esp. childrens were the main victims.

The scene really chocked me,i was numb for a while but what can i do for them.

I want to break these shackles.I really wanna help these people.

The pain with which people of SIERRA LEONE, GAZA,GHANA,COMBODIA,NORTH KOREA,BOSNIA,AFGHANISTAN

 and many more to count live is really painstricken.

Its really painful to watch these plethora of problems.

Now these problems are no more domestic,but international

and they need some pragmatic solution.

i know i can help them only if i've got weight(in my pen),den only people will 

take d pains to listen me. i would really like to be a part of this solution.

THIS VIOLENCE OF POVERTY(in all respect) NEED TO BE STOPPED.

 

   

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i'm in great tension n i know for what.these days i'm thinking a lot,for everything.

all soughts of negative thoughts are coming into my mind. about my career,my family,my future. i think i'm not able to deal with it.i'm overburdened.

sooner or later im going to die of diabetes.fuck man.

i'm trying to improve everyone rather improving myself.

i dont want to think but i think that too a lot.

its not dat i dont know about myself or about my negative points.

i'm living with a guilt of not able to serve my country,family.

i'm not loyal to myself.

right now i'm listening "no joy in mudville"

i want to sleep but i'm not able to..............

will i be able to crack this shell,it's hardnut.

i think i'm in obsessive compulsive disorder

I want to focus on ...............

Engineering with ROCK

Hey sandman's here after a long time.

dis time its about metal dat too heavy.......

I'm writing this while Metallica drums into my head and my mind is just about to hit Overload.. 

I'm writing this to address a question put to me a million times, usually with grimaces and looks that usually convey the unshakeable conviction that I belong in an asylum, in an iron straitjacket…the question is .. "How CAN u like ROCK?????"  Its all noise, they're screaming not singing, They're violent disturbed people, This music Is ANTICHRIST!!!! 

Ok, by now everybody must be wondering what an article on rock is doing in an Engg section. What's got me thinking is the fact that all Engineering Colleges have a Rock Show.. How many Commerce and Science colleges have u seen holding Rock Shows? I believe there's a connection between Engineering and Rock, a very powerful connection.

What's rock about? Who are we people who enjoy this music? What do we see in it? What do we want from it? Is it just perverseness that drives us to this music?

You hear noise.. we hear the melody of power, not power over others. Power within ourselves. We hear the music that speaks of a real world, not the little idiotic chocolate romances that your beloved Britney spears and Christina Aguilera sing about. I wont accept that crap because I know it for what it is. I don't want that music because it shows me a world of mindless fools who want to believe that that's all the world's about. And the people who just listen to the music because its soothing, because it kills time.. That's not why I listen to music. I listen to music because it's an expression of who I am, who I can be.. and I don't want to be what your crappy Britspear thinks I should be. I don't want her to be born to make me happy, I don't want to drive her crazy, I don't give a shit if she's lonely or lucky or whatever else she wants to moan about... Frankly, My Spear, I don't give a damn..

Do you see the connection? What we are aspiring towards is the same. We are Engineers. What do we care about these things? We are here to Create, to Invent. Not because the world wants it, not because some people would be saved if we create it. We aspire to create because its what we are, what we want to be. Not for anyone, only for ourselves. These rockers, Metallica, Megadeth, Sepultura, Rage against the Machine.. They started singing not because people would like their music.. They rocked because that is how they wanted to express themselves. They didn't give a shit if people ridiculed them. 

Isn't this what we want to say about ourselves as Engineers? No one owns us. Not our college, Not our company, Not the country we work for. No one owns the insides of our heads. We will be what we will be. We will decide our duties. We will make our own rules.. Let them come and say it cant be done.. We'll do it and laugh in their faces.

This is what I wanted to say.. I respect Rock.. and I respect Engineering.. not Engineering the education system.. Engineering The System of Thought and Action.

I think u too should respect dis crawl,snarl,dis rush of blood n adrenaline and fuck dat soothing,choclate music.

We are engineers, we got to respect rock.

hiiii,

sandman's here trying not to feel pride in prejudices......

hmmmm...we need to give a serious thought about it.From childhood we have been battered by one or the other stereotypes, and we try we keep going with it.

How can one do that?but why he can't???

Serious know............

i've a feeling that when we are dealing with our active and maldaptive prejiduces we need to owe them.

but again the same ques. arises HOW????

that actually i too don;t know

but this i can say that our prejudices show our perspective towards life or anything.