SUFFOCATING UNDER THE ACTIONS OF SORROW 

This about my actions which i acted but i didn't wanted to.

Really i feel bad about it but feel like i'm bound to do it.

Can i do anything about it?

Whenever i see anyone in pain i too feel that pain but i only feel it .I'm not able to do anything about it.

I don't know what stops me from helping them.It's about all sought of situations esp. major ones.

I want to slap myself because i'm just fucking around and not able to come out of box.

This reminds me of the RDB's line "AB BHI JISKA KHOON NA KHOALA WOH KHOON NAHI WOH PANI HAI".

I've become used to these problems i'll not say numb because i feel that pain.

I want to help poor farmers (esp. bundelkhand) who are resorting to suicide,victims 

of child labour and many such peoples with gruesome atrocities.

Yesterday i was watching a documentary "THE KILLING ZONE" based on the crisis in

 middle east.The people esp. childrens were the main victims.

The scene really chocked me,i was numb for a while but what can i do for them.

I want to break these shackles.I really wanna help these people.

The pain with which people of SIERRA LEONE, GAZA,GHANA,COMBODIA,NORTH KOREA,BOSNIA,AFGHANISTAN

 and many more to count live is really painstricken.

Its really painful to watch these plethora of problems.

Now these problems are no more domestic,but international

and they need some pragmatic solution.

i know i can help them only if i've got weight(in my pen),den only people will 

take d pains to listen me. i would really like to be a part of this solution.

THIS VIOLENCE OF POVERTY(in all respect) NEED TO BE STOPPED.

 

   

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i'm in great tension n i know for what.these days i'm thinking a lot,for everything.

all soughts of negative thoughts are coming into my mind. about my career,my family,my future. i think i'm not able to deal with it.i'm overburdened.

sooner or later im going to die of diabetes.fuck man.

i'm trying to improve everyone rather improving myself.

i dont want to think but i think that too a lot.

its not dat i dont know about myself or about my negative points.

i'm living with a guilt of not able to serve my country,family.

i'm not loyal to myself.

right now i'm listening "no joy in mudville"

i want to sleep but i'm not able to..............

will i be able to crack this shell,it's hardnut.

i think i'm in obsessive compulsive disorder

I want to focus on ...............